I’ve been having an affair for 10 years – what will I do when it ends?

I’ve been having sex regularly with a married man for about 10 years. The sex is amazing, which is why we’ve continued for so long. We are intellectually matched and get on very well, but neither of us want the relationship to be anything more than it is. I feel lucky to have what I have with him. I am independent and very happy not to be in a “normal” relationship. I work overseas a lot and having him to satisfy me when I am back is perfect. I am very content with all aspects of my life.

However, I know that the relationship will come to a natural conclusion at some point. As that time gets closer (we don’t have a fixed date, but we are not getting any younger), I wonder how I will feel. Yes, I will be immensely sad to have lost a special, intimate relationship but I am not sure if I will suddenly want to share my life with someone full-time. If I do, how will I go about finding that next someone? I will have such high expectations that I wonder if I will ever find another man who can make me feel satisfied – both sexually and emotionally. I don’t want what I have to stop, but I know that is not possible. There must be others, both the single lover and the married one, who have had a similar experience.

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I’ve been having an affair for 10 years – what will I do when it ends?